And when the fear of the past lockdown arrived, my stomach shrunk. But this time something was different ...
Last Friday the government announced Tuscany became "zona rossa" "red zone". How come? Last Wednesday we just started to be "orange zone". In 3 days the quick closure came, the fear of everyone arrived.
Yesterday after my On- Line class of wine finished, I couldn`t stop thinking what I am going to do? I can´t deal with another lockdown I was mentally scared ...Stop Eli I said to myself day by day... I have to admit that my biggest fear was not being able to bike and run of getting my fantastic espresso lungo from the corner loosing my freedom, feeling stuck at home.
The day arrived... I woke up got dressed and took my bike and went out. There was few people out no cars, took the first turn to arrive to the Piazzale Michelangelo and then I felt relief. I was able to bike, then arrived to the Cascine and of course!!! There was plenty of people running; following the rules clearly, but biking, people smiling, laughing I still could see their faces smile under their face mask and in their eyes . Italians are a culture of happiness, of soul and laughter; even-though the situation is not great I could still see their spirit.
Seeing groups of old bikers perfectly dressed up, parents teaching how to ride bikes to their kids, women exercising from all ages I felt hope.
Came home with another mindset, I want to do this different, I don`t want to keep complaining about all of the amazing things that the Covid-19 and its lockdowns took from me. I want to write down and think all of the beautiful things that this year gave me and that this last closure will make me aware to see. And by the time Christmas Eve comes be more grateful, more present and more sensitive.
The past years I always wanted to have time for my self, work on my self not only physically, culturally and mentally this year I got to read like 5 times more than I was reading, thought me to be resilient and to adapt to the different circumstances new cities and new people that came to my life like stars shinning the path.
When I realized my mind was starting to be more positive, I went to the market and I found this music on the streets, it was just love.
Then in the night I went for a "cioccolata calda" "hot chocolate" at the S-brino with a friend and coming back home I found the surprise of the Christmas lights on, Florence was more beautiful than ever. I felt like it was just waiting for us, it looked more pretty than ever to give us hope and to know that when all of this finish the city will be there to keep embracing our dreams and our moments of happiness and joy.
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